Where do I belong? What is my purpose? Knowing where I fit in and what I am supposed to do is important to my sanity. Maslow's Hierarchy of needs demonstrates this, ok so it's not a perfect model but you get the idea.
For a rapidly approaching 40 male, I thought by now I would have it all
figured out, know who I was, where I was going and who with. As it
happens I am none-the-wiser :/
As a kid, I was always told my mouth would get me into trouble and perhaps it finally has?! Or should I say my opinions have. I wonder if I am stubborn or simply deluded in my pursuit of life, love and happiness.
Why am I now afraid to be intimate? I used to be open, flirtatious and caring, this seems to have been replaced, making me closed, aloof and uninterested - hardly appealing qualities. Why has this happened - a string of failed relationships? being hurt? taking a chance? But surely that's what lifes about, isn't it? Does everyone hurt like this? Does everyone have a pain so much it hurts to breathe? Does everyone carry the weight of their troubles with them always and forever? Does everyone question what life would be like without them? I'm not being morbid, just asking. What is the meaning, the point, the purpose of life - if not to be shared?
Not understanding where I fit into this world any longer has made me wonder - is this it?! Have I had my day, my 15 minutes, did I blink and miss it? Do I need to sorry to the world to make it better? If I do, I'm SORRY! I have never been more, please just put my life back on track.
I don't want much, just acknowledge me, see that I am trying, and I will do the rest - and hopefully this time get it right!
I'm not a bad man, please know this if nothing else :/
Molly on Monday with Cassie and Sadie too.
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