Sunday, December 30, 2007

Xmas in the UK

Christmas is a wonderful time of year for some, and I hope it is for you. Sadly for me Christmas has never been a time for celebrations, instead usually family arguments, leaving home, the memory of my brothers death (1 week before Christmas; thanks to a dickhead drunk driver), and now the loss of access to see my daughter (after bringing her up for 8 years), because her mom is..... (fill in the blanks), so as you can see not alot of reasons to be happy at Christmas.

This year was no different, what a fiasco it turned out to be - I booked my trip arrived as expected, had to stay with another friend because the one I expected to stay with didn't answer their phone, messages or emails: thanks!

I got to see China and as expected the atmosphere was frosty (even for this time of year), I took her out for the day and got her to help me choose what she wanted for Christmas, last year I went a little crazy with the presents, but this time I took it easier - I managed to spend around 8 hours with China before returning her home, which again was no simple task.
If you ever have had to leave someone behind you care for so dearly you will know how hard this is, to walk away knowing the next time you see them could be months from now.

My ex decided she wanted to "chat" as she had company there I declined (when I say company her new guy) - then got loads of phone calls 'telling me' what I MUST do, sorry to say once I left that relationship I have no responsibility to her, only China. Which I try to do what I can but when I don't get the simple things like time with her, it makes me bitter to even do that.

Anyway very long story short - it ended in a full blown row on the phone the conclusion been - "you can no longer see your daughter" (said my ex) - GREAT !! Merry Fucking Christmas!!! Why is it that the person that matters always loses out? Why is it when you treat someone well they shit on you? Why is it life is so unfair?

Well the long and short of this week is this I shall not be returning to the UK at all next year (unless its an emergency), I simply cannot put up with this bullshit anymore. I have tried to be cordial, I have helped, I have tried to make the most of what we have and its never enough, so no more!

On the flip side of the trip I got to catch up with my cousin who sadly needs some guidance in her life as she is surrounded by nobodys and people going no where fast - No I'm not saying I'm all that, but at 18 you do need some guidance, and I really hope she gets it. Her boyfriend is a knob and a waste of oxygen, her mom is trying hard but keeps falling, its a shame that the family unit in England isn't like that of Indians or Spaniards because they stick together and help each other get what they need; family is the MOST important thing in their culture, in English culture, no! Its who has the most Bling or the best this or that, sad really!!

Question: Why is it we put up with things that don't make us happy?? Yes it would be far harder to change it for something else or go it alone, but why stay in a situation that you are miserable with?? Is it ultimately worth it -=- When I have changed my situations I usually feel far better for it and usually regret not doing it sooner, so why do some people stick in a bad situation?

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Back where it started

This week I decided to go back to Vaughan Town as an anglo just as I started one year ago - since then I have done 20 programs, and have enjoyed each of them, its good to see how much I've grown looking back.

The week was full of talented people from all over the world and each person participanted fully, which made the week fly by - as usual it hard to say goodbye at the end but there were a few 'master' students who I'm bound to see again as they have to do 4 programs before they finish.

So what did the week have install? Well we did a Christmas theme Vaughan Town - Marissa read Twas the night before Xmas in Spanglish! We had carols, a Xmas tree and eggnog!

I did my dance in a mask which was very funny - got a standing ovation; but nearly died in the process as i couldn't breath - and trust me doing 48 dances in 6 minutes you NEED to breath!! hehe - but it was SO worth it. Having thrown down that gauntlet Rob had to pull out something big - no not that!!!!

He did a portrait of yours truly in 5 minutes!! and it was awesome: its now on my wall at home - this was his present to me for Xmas which got me a little teary. Rob being Rob also gave something to everyone else - A VIRUS!!! This time it was just the flu - the antibiotics cleared up the other one ehh mate!?! (just kidding)

As usual the photos of the week are HERE

Where ever you are from - Feliz Navidad - Merry Christmas - Joyeux Noël et Bonne Année!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

In search of Vikings

So Oslo, how was it??

It was cool - well cold! But not as cold as expected (not yet anyway). It even snowed!!
I have come to the conclusion that most city's are all alike, a few differences here and there but mainly all alike - the big chains such as H&M, McDonalds, Burger King keep popping up where ever I go keeps things slightly familiar.

However the main differences are the culture and the customs - they speak Hurdy Gurdy in Oslo (at least that's how it sounded), very pale and blonde for the most part - they even had a Viking Santa!

Alot of the labels and and signage are just plain funny - SMAK (means taste), FORSKNSPLINTTER (work it out) and FORSKNINGSPARKEN (a train stop) even a FORSKNCENTRE, and many more - i just cant recall them just now!!!! check this one out :-
Sign in a store "Stengt mellom god jul og godt nytt aar." which means "Closed between merry christmas and a happy new year."

They have a great statue of a crying boy, looks to me like he deserves a good smack and sent to bed, spoilt brat - check out the picture.

I went to the Olympic ski jump slope - that is scarily steep, but even scarier is at the very end hiding in the bushes is a huge stone troll!! They have a thing for trolls and who would argue with them their vikings!! They were also hosting the Nobel Peace Prize there when I visited.

My tour guide was a good friend (Altaire) who not only got me drunk but also took me around and told me about the city she also gave me life advice - now that's a tour guide people!!
The trip was quite long but no adventures to speak of, but I had a good time and saw many cool wonderful things, will I return!??! Maybe do the REAL vikings lair next time and go to Sweden!

P.S. they eat Rudolph!! While we are celebrating the fact he helped Santa guide his sleigh and lavish us in gifts these guys are tucking into to him, literally!
Its also a very expensive place to visit!

I also have photos of my trip; which can be found HERE

I can now say thank you in 10 different languages ;) takk!

Thursday, December 06, 2007


I found this site whilst nosing around the internet = worth realising that my Spanish friends are not the only ones struggling with English.

very funny, some of the signs are just DAM funny!!!

boredome strikes.. ...again!

So the question is:- WHY DO WE ACCEPT THIS?

PICTURE <----------------------------------> REALITY

So feeling hungry? Bet you are!

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Everybody's Free

Everybody's free to feel good! Or are they? Why is it there's an expectation that you have to keep friends informed of what you are doing, when and who with??

Why do some friends feel that they need to be kept informed and have the right to be pissed off at you if they don't like what you are doing?
This has happened to me several times, and I'm curious as to why some friends feel there are no boundaries and others let you do as you wish but still support you - is it the closeness?

Its strange because i can have 3 friends (I have more honest), one is happy for what I do, the other doesn't really mind and the finally one gets mad because they were involved/invited/known - whats that about??

The role of family members is clear, the role of emergency services is obvious but...

Some ideas:
A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be

Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things.

If a friend is in trouble, don't annoy him by asking if there is anything you can do. Think up something appropriate and do it.

Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.

To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may be the world.

A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.

True friendship isn't about being there when it's convenient; it's about being there when it's not.

Friends are like bras: close to your heart and there for support.

ps - my ankle is still fucked!!
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